Along with Balmung's death scene are finally completed and finalized! I haven't wrote it yet, but so far, I don't know whether or not I can stomach it by the time I write it. After all, the whole thing seems to be a bit too gorish...

Anyways, its only now that I finally bother to give the guy a name. Didn't even now what he should really look like but... heck.

So far, I've finished everything that concerns Shiro and Balmung. I've also finished a wee lil part of Zide and Shiro's promises to each other (its only a flashback, but quite hard to make), Haruka's mourning part, the entire scene of Shiro mourning over Zide, the whole Kai and Shiro struggling part (the face-mutilating one), and of course, the Zide versus Kai part in El Nadia.

Somehow, I have no idea on how to get rid of Kai. I don't know whether or not I should kill him, 'cause if I do, there'll be no bad guy. If there's no bad guy, it means that there'll be no chance for me to start a new arc, and if I can't start a new arc.. My career and inspirations as an authoress shall demise! DX KYUH!

Anyways... I dunno what to talk about. Aside from the fact that I can't help replaying those sappy scenes of Shiro and Balmung. They're so sweet and cute and SQUEAL. GAH. I WANNA ADD A CHOCOBO IN. DX

Well, not my fault that the guy is pretty much distressed that I killed him. Heck. I still don't know how the heck can other authors handle life without being sued daily by their own characters. a.a; I swear facing lawsuits everyday is getting on my nerve! *shoves Zide far into the deeper parts of sanctuary*

Now I'm very, VERY sure that no one knows Zide. In fact, its only recently that I've decided to give him a name and proper history. He was suppose to be this ordinary black haired guy with a laid back streetsmart attitude. Somewhere near Zack, (who's Zide's look was based on) but not too near.

The guy was suppose to have a red hair, until I give up on it, realizing that I got too many redheads on the set. So then I turned to green... And realize Shiro wouldn't look good with someone who got green hair. Then finally, the revolutionary black. Hah. No wonder the dude got adopted by Hilda's father. Hah. And then became Shiro's loving friend who never get laid by said best friend. Yeah. Sad. Hah.

Random Note: The name 'Zide' came from the the fact that I was a second obsessed with this cute guy from Yukiru Sugisaki's new manga introduction, the name of it unknown. But ye can find that preview chapter in her Neutral artbook. There's a page about Zide and his looks... And from there on I took the most basic part of Zide and then it leads to Zack and... well.. Let's say the Z's are getting me high.

Weirdly enough, Zide suddenly got inserted into every aspect of Shiro's life that soon, the idea of Shiro and Mildeus' incestious, with Balmung's rather mushy and that with Ravenus' S&M relationships got out of the screen.

Random Note: ...Yeah, Shiro is such a whore. *avoids suitcase being thrown at her*

Alright. So... how long is Zide's lifespan? Probably from wherever Shiro made his first appearance up to Destiny's Rebirth.

Random Note: I've started a whole new arc, aka the Rebirth Arc. This is where ye'll only see Zide and Ravenus. Hah.

Zide shall die by Kai's hands... Like how Shiro lost his right side of the face to Kai's hand... rather, knife. Yeah. Too bad Zide was killed by the sword he was suppose to protect... Poor guy... <_<;

Aside from those, Zide doesn't suffer much humiliation than Shiro did so yeah. He didn't get rape by insane demon-gods, he didn't get stalk by angel-look-a-like, didn't get rather steamy sex relationship with his own father, and most of all, he didn't get to be chased around town by rabid fangirls, even though everyone in the entire world knows Shiro is gay. And so, Zide is just an ordinary Crimson Knight, always by Shiro's side, ready to die for the king (aka Mildeus) and will do anything just for his master/boss's sake. Who is actually Shiro o_O;

Anyways... Now to History!

How did Shiro and Zide met?
It all started in a party that Mildeus throw, and there the two kids met. Precisely, at the age of 7. (Thats what my keyboard insist <.<; It won't hit the six...) Well, Shiro at 7 while Zide at 8. Cheers for the shortie.

Random Note: Even though Zide is older, he's an inch (and a couple bit of centimeters) shorter.

How strong is Zide?
If ye all will exclude Shiro's pyrokinesis and the power to summon sacred guardians from the depths of Asgard, Zide is obviously stronger when it comes to strength. Sadly, he isn't that strong in the mental side, since he's paranoia and panicky side always gets the better of him.

What does Zide fears?
He fears his own title, he's afraid of blood and thunder, but most of all, he's afriad of Shiro getting hurt.

What does Zide hates?
Actually, I'll include the 'Who' part here. Zide hates Balmung. Zide hates Chronos. Zide hates Ravenus. In fact, Zide hates everyone in the Rosenkreuz family tree, simply because they always manage to get their hands inside Shiro's pants (or get the prince into their bed) while he couldn't. But to be honest, there's only one thing Zide hates and that is cherry, because it always keeps Shiro from minding him.

Yes, Zide is a very, very, jealous guy. =D

How come Zide is an orphan?
Wow, what a genius. Obviously, the guy lost his parents when he was 3, and got adopted by Lord Gunther, which is Hilda's father.

Who is Lord Gunther? And Hilda?
Lord Gunther is the General of the Mildean Army. A fully pledge knight, he's also Mildeus' best friend. Hilda is obviously Lord Gunther's daughter, and the fiance of Zide.

How come Zide is engaged to his own sister?
Dude, those two aren't even blood related. But heck. Let's scratch that idea.>

Now then, I need to go and probably by tomorrow, I'll be posting a new entry about the Rebirth Arc. Tata~!

Yep. I've decided to make Destiny Chronicles the sequel of Seela. It took me weeks to actually figure out the whole thing, gawds! x.x But thankfully enough, its finally here, though still not written. Don't know when though, because I only plotted it. Heck, I'm not even done in plotting it! x_x; Only plotting, no planning yet... But I'm very sure to put it up, soon enough.

Anyways, before I go of describing Destiny, I want to speak of Seela first. Seela's composed of five stories, first being Dark Remembrance, Crimson Knight, Amethyst Rose, Northern Light (Though there is another short sequel) and War of the World, in that order. Though War of the World is more of a mix of the four, still, it holds the content of each. Northern Light is, as what you guess, where everything happens. The first three are just... well, flashback or sorts of it. It tells the history of it, after al, Seela did start with Northern Light first.

Northern Light is compose of three parts. The sequel (Dumbly titled as "Northern Light 2" <_<;) and the alternate version, The Future Unforeseen. Northern Light tells the story of our dear hero, Niebel and his curse, Binder.

Anyways, the whole thing about Northern Light is pretty quite easy to grab. The plot is as simple as any plot can be.

As for Destiny Chronicles... It picks up right after Northern Light 2 left. So yeah... the plot starts with Mildean missing its heir, Niebel (He didn't took the crown in Northern Light 2, though he did become some kind of hero). Because of this, the Council has no choice but to give the crown title to Shiro, who's the only one left that is a Hart. Life continues on in Mildean as normal as possible, until the turn of age of Shiro's two children, Kai and Satoshi.

Basically, Destiny Chronicles is like the Strafe of Schatten und Lighter (Gluhen das Ewige), only this time, we got two leads battling each others' oddities. Kai is the elder brother, brash, reckless, less IQ, and pretty much the nicer one of the two. Also a big softie, and loves cherries, just like his dad. And to be even more like Shiro, he controls fire and gifted with Dranzer after turning 12. In short, he's the carbon copy of Shiro with a rock-star attitude.

Satoshi, in the meantime, is the other side of the coin. Silent, sarcastic, smart... He's pretty much the S's. Oddly enough, he got his powers and sacred beast through special events. In all honesty, Satoshi was suppose to be Kai's twin, until I later realize that no matter how many times I try to redo the profiles, I won't match. Now here's a spoiler for everyone to rot themselves with. Kai and Satoshi don't have the same mother. Ha. Kai's mother is a dark knight of celestial blood, while Satoshi's that of a tennyo. A simple, ordinary tennyo who Shiro perverted himself with. Funny, noh? And because of that, it basically leads to a lot of oddities, since another special trait of Satoshi is that he sees things. He can see dead people, spirits, ghosts, and most important of all, the dark side of a person-or the demon side.

When I first created Satoshi, I was pretty freaked. I'm not really much the person to add in demons, ghosts and corpses in real detail, since I'm pretty much of a scaredy cat, but upon creating him, I've actually braved myself to do it.

Now let's go in depth. I really wanna go in depth. Nyah. xP

Kai's mother is.... pretty obvious. I don't want to mention her name. Its like hitting myself with a crab. Anyways, he controls fire, doesn't have Binder (he can't, since Binder is still with Niebel.). BUT, the strange thing is that he manage to have Ravenus instead. It all started simply with a bet Chronos provoked Ravenus to make with Kai, and Kai, being pretty much a very lucky guy, wins the bet and thus Ravenus is trapped to serve as Kai's spirit seal. (Still, the guy has to make the bet, or else he'll remained sealed and Tamer-less forever. Its a curse thing. <.<)

Kai also has Dranzer. He received the egg when he wwas 12, and it hatched when he turns 16, and there Dranzer started growing from a chibi phoenix to a full grown one. The Dranzer we have here is pretty much bubbly and less serious than the usual one, being more like Natsumi. (The other three Titans didn't appear much in Destiny anymore. Only Balmung remains.)

Another strangeness of Kai is that being a cherry eater, he will pretty much do anything to have one. He fights pretty much with Shiro because of cherry =D Aside from those... well... He argues a lot with Shiro. But hey, this is puberty boy we're talking about. Nyah.

As the chronicle expands, we get to see a darker side of Kai. After Satoshi's turning of sides, Kai got into a depressed mode, which results to pretty much lot of glaring, cold shoulder, and instant killing. Yes. He's gory and kills head on around chronicle's half. I don't know how long Destiny will be, but I believe Kai will remain that way forever. (Unless Satoshi open up for a change.)

As for physical appearance... well... He got spiky hair and bangs (Imagine a younger looking Hiruko of Flame of Recca) ... and its blue. Actually, its around dark blue to navy.His eyes are obviously around dark shade of red, and not the bright one. And clothing changes a lot, though there is always a vest, arm and wrist bands. And oh, rings and chains. xP

Now, lets get to Satoshi...

This kiddo is pretty much like the Satoshi of DN Angel, where he originates from. xD; There wasn't suppose to be any character taken from DN Angel, a I once vowed, but after creating Kai, I changed my mind. He has to have a brother, and Satoshi is a good example.

The first try was suppose to be Carrol again, until I realize its pretty much still boring and same when I'll use the shoujo-looking guy. So, I created a new OC. An OC that can see dead people. Thats what I first trait I put in when I created Sato. He has to see dead people and people's dark sides. So in short, he's pretty freaky o.O

As for the glasses... He did first come with glasses on already, as an excuse to keep himself from getting physco because of ghosts and ghoul everywhere in his sight. Hair is pretty pale blue, eyes very icy blue, just like his mother.

Satoshi's mother is Rhea, the tennyo that lives in the northern part of Tenkai, and happens to be a priestess of some ice god, which I won't emphasize myself with. Sato didn't actually grow up with Shiro, in all oddities, which makes the two even more closer. Sato, is like what most children of his kinds are, damned. So its pretty not a surprise that he'll fall into the dark side.

He wields Ensui, given to him when he turned 14, same time as Kai has the Sword of Light. He also has Wolborg, though did he only got through sheer force of will. It was during that time when they were ambushed by ogres on their way to Symphonia, and seeing Kai taking the lead and all, jealousy got the better of him and thats how he manage to have Wolborg. In the end though, its pretty much a nasty thing.

You see, in the half part of the chronicle, through Sephiroth's lies, Sato got into the dark side after Sephiroth destroyed Ensui through dreams. He also didn't quite believe in himself and Kai anymore, after Shiro leave, so its pretty much all the same reasons.

Sato did abandon Wolborg, after having Ensui destroyed. He actually sealed he wolf spirit in the Cavern of Ice in its human form, where later Kai went to unseal him so that he can get Sato back (To beat him and save him, I still don't know).

-ENTRY SHALL NOT BE CONTINUED-

*nods* I am! I still am!! w00t!! xD

Anyways...

I haven't been able to write some stuffs lately, because boku wa, hontou no busy desu noda~! ~_~; Aside from that... Author's block is in the way. Yeah... Again... But don't worry desu noda! ^-^ I've been drawing a lot lately =3 which is a startling event desu noda! Its not everyday ye see Umi-chii drawing day after day~

Aside from those.. well... I really can't come up with a good plot for a new ficcu. I know I said that Vergessen will be my last arc, thats why I'm very set in writing everything down. And so, now, I'm faced with a huge problem.

I need an effing ficcu where Binder makes his part in Niebel's life. I can't remake Dark Remembrance anymore. Nu-uh. Its solely just for Chronos and Binder's past, not another version of Northern Lights... Thats why I've thought about, "Hey, why not make it 'Northern Lights' instead? At least now we got the two together!".

Actually, the whole plot of NL's alternate version is that in here, Niebel is the one who wants to revive Binder, not the other way around. The problem is, how. And aside from that, to be quite honest, NL's alternate version is very much alike War of Nations (that of Kritiker). Just throw away the war thing, please.

Anyways, like what I said. Its very much like WoN, the whole plot thing. And thats my problem. I want something that is effing different, for god's sake! X.x;;

Random Note: There's alot of good hints of Binder/Niebel in NL's alternate version, though I've kept myself from getting it to the unadulterated version. Yes. I'm keeping it low. I'm keeping it in the 'father and son' kind of relationship! OMG! >_<;; The apple had poisoned me~!! *screams and wails like a deflated crab*

And so, thats all I can say... >D;;;

P.S.
Neh, who likes that banner of Shuda? ^__^;; I was immensely bored... and thought that I need a new banner for this blog, since because I've closed down Solace Memories. *nods* Kylose is pretty down lately, and I don't know when it'll be fixed, but all I can say is that I've already moved all of my works to Autumn Sea. My problem is though, as far as I can remember, some of my updates are stuck in SM.. <__<;; Which I may add, have forgotten what they are... *sweatdrops*

*is waiting to be shot to hell*

Yes, people. Umi-chii is currently suffering the lack of ideas, thus me writing and drawing NOTHING. I'm actually determined to draw Chronos in his full form, but sadly, head got shot by an airplane, so the idea was lost in the wind. Not to mention the fact that I also wanted to draw Aki again, but it seems like the lack of references can kill. x-x

Aside from those problems, I'm suffering another Author's block. I freakingly don't know what to do with Amethyst Rose anymore, and my planning of Crimson Knight it proceeding the way I prefer. Not to mention Northern Light. I ruined everything in it. Not only did I forgot what scene should happen afterward, I've also screwed up some plot turns x_X So put it shortly, I'm lost. Greatly.

So thats why right now, I'm struggling to put myself back in my two good feet, trying to knack my head to think of something better than what I can think right now, which is designing Niebel's current look. I'm a bit relieved though that I got a few reference for him after reading volume 33 and 34 of Rave, but sadly, I didn't got the same treatment with Sieg x.x;

I'm inspired by this fanart someone drew of Sieg, which suits Shiro's profile snuggly.... As for Sieg's.... Well, I'll just whack myself until I find anyway to get everything back on running the way I want them to be.

As for now, let my head rest, because I seriousaleila need to get my energy back, not to mention to refresh my head because I'm having a very hard time to organize all of these plans. Not to mention the sudden explosion of the dire need write Dark Remembrance.... I've already written its chapter one with my calligraphy pen as practice piece, yet I didn't type it down yet. I'll probably type it along with the rest of Verita Nascosta's chapters. And if my head is cooperative enough by the time come, I'll try to write at least just one chapter of Amethyst Rose and update both Northern Light and Crimson Knight.

So I hope everyone is not gonna kill me for my laziness but seriousaleila, I need to rest my head x.x; This list of works is killing me! Not to mention our doujinshi on the making! GAH! I haven't draw a single draft! x_________X;;;; I freakingly don't have a single idea for the cover! UGHA!! x__X

Credit goes to Chronos for giving the title, even if we did fuss a lot about it xD;

Anyways...

Dark Remembrance. Where I'm far too lazy to decide where to put the flashbacks, and instead, stuff them all here. I'm currently in the making of the scene of where Syfer and Binder gets pretty squishy then angsty. I'm still not quite sure though whether I really will write it... I'm in the hang of it, not to mention I've been editting Northern Light and Eternity big time that I have mixed some scenes x.x;

I've also realized that I won't be around to update for 6 days, due to the fact that we have to go to Hong Kong for the Christmas vacation, thats why I'm putting everything up right now as fast as I can. I'm still stuck in Verita Nascosta, so don't expect me to update it anytime sooner. I was actually planning to type and beta-ed Chapter 2 and 3 but thought against it, since I have work to do (My bro's song list -_-;)

Anyhow, all I can say right now that I'm trying to keep everything flowing freely. I've also manage to get a head start in Amethyst Rose, which is a good thing since I don't know what to do with it ever since I got my head jumbled up x_x; So yeah.... Crimson Knight is being restart, reboot and making sure not to repeat those damn scenes which I seem to love to repeat all over. Aside from that...

I've been actually thinking of posting up the Characters' pages. I've already wrote them down in Teh Memo, and its whether or not for me to type them all up. I'm not sure anymore though if I won't be that lazy anymore to really type them down.

With all of those said, I guess I should end this now and here then. And yes, I do realize that I fancy Tactics artwork XD;; *points at the side image* Sugino is teh <3 =D

Reviews.... I don't think I'll be writing some, since my plans have been shifting here and then ~.~ So they're not stable enough for me to tell you all about it. But so far, the timeline I used are all continual (or whatever the word is). I'm not quite sure though if I'll edit things around, since the Amethyst Rose I planned over there isn't the same as what I'm planning for right now....

Testing...Testing....Am Testing...

You know, I wish the background is more blue... ._.;

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Lets see if its as pwetty as it once was o.O